Super Tuesday

Tomorrow is "Super Tuesday". I will go to the library and cast my vote before heading to work. I am hoping to make it to work on time. Polls don't open until 7am. I will be there when they open. I go first thing. I refuse to go after work. I want to get there, vote and know I at least had my say even if I don't like the results. I have a friend who works in the Elections office and I feel like after this week she deserves a month at a spa.

If there is a primary in your state, I urge you to vote. The principles this country was founded on still mean something. Prove it. Vote.

[off soapbox]

Just a quick word. I talked to Susan today and asked about Yvonne. She is still hanging in there but her liver and kidneys don't want to work and she is suffering. Another reminder that life is most definitely NOT fair.

Kiss your children, grandchildren, pets, spouse, teddy bear. Hug them tight. Cherish them. Be grateful they are there. Some day they may not be and you will wish you had. Remember - no regrets. As my friend Corinne says, live, laugh, love.

Random Thoughts

I was taking out the garbage last night and was struck with some random thoughts.

Most of the time when I think about things I do the whole "pros/cons" thing. And the thing I seem to do that about the most is living alone. OK, it's not just living alone, it's being alone, too, because that's a difference. I wanted to see the list of what it is I miss most by living alone. I already know the list of pros is very big.

I admit, I miss these:

Having someone to say hello to in the morning or whenever I get home from wherever I've been which is usually work.

Eating a meal at the kitchen table with someone. I almost never eat at the table. It's a nice flat surface in the dining area to put decorations on.

Cooking. Cooking for one is depressing so I don't do it hardly ever.

Getting a second opinion without having to pick up the phone.

But you know, just as I have always known, the "con" list is short and not enough to outweigh the "pro" list. Still, once in a while I get hit with the "con" list and it seems overwhelming. And I realize that is just temporary. Being lonely is the problem, not being alone. And there are things to do to get past it. So I do.

I did a lot of knitting this weekend. I will post about that on my other blog. Sometimes I am so grateful I took up crafting again. It really does keep the loneliness away on the rare occasions when it hits. And movies. I watch a lot of movies. It used to bother me that the women in my family who lived alone watched a lot of tv. I think now I understand it. I like silence, usually in the morning, but sometimes at night, well, in the darkness, that's when it hits you that you're still alone. I have Jan next door so I am not truly alone. But when it feels that way I spent my electric budget watching tv. Movies. :)

I am going to Ally's Thursday night. I can hardly wait! We will be making apple crisp, probably Saturday. I am going to be tired but I will enjoy it. I hope I can get more pictures this time. I will be watching Matt on Sunday until either his mom gets home from work or his dad comes back from drill. Wish me luck. I have a day and a half to learn his schedule and have him get used to the stranger. Maybe someday if I can keep visiting more than once or twice a year, he'll know me when I show up. Or at least he will know the stranger is someone who loves him. 'cuz I sure do.