Another Rambling on a Saturday Morning

I don't have a lot to write about. If you look at my crafty blog you'll see what I've been up do lately. Mostly knitting. But I have gone out for dinner a couple of times and I had a meeting so I have been out of the house. I spent most of last weekend in which accounts for getting a lot of crafting done. I went out Saturday morning and that was it. Later after I finish watering the back yard I will take my shower and head out to go do a bit of shopping at Joann's. Maybe while I'm on that side of town I will pick up some lunch somewhere. I was going to go get my car washed yesterday but couldn't bring myself to do it. I don't know why. It desperately needs it. But the car was in the shop last week and cost me a lot of money to get fixed and that was depressing. I still need to do the car wash, oil change, new wipers and the thought of spending even more on the car this month is awful. There goes what small amount of money I had managed to save towards a car payment. What I've spent this month is the equivalent of almost 3 years of savings. I squeeze in the budget to put money away for emergencies and then in one swoop it's gone. Tell me that isn't depressing. And enough to keep me home and not doing anything beyond basics. Except today I am not doing "basic". I want to pick up a few crafting related things and lunch. I admit that since I don't spend a lot buying food, I eat out more than I should. Twice a week at work for lunch. And at least once during the week. But I can't spend the rest of my life being totally deprived just because of emergencies, can I? My New England background tells me I should. Just do nothing beyond necessities and save. But the truth is it gets lonely doing nothing and always staying home. If I didn't knit or crochet I wouldn't be able to do it. Yes, I like being home. Yes, I like crafting. But I won't let my budget make me a total hermit. I can't.

Anyway, in 3 weeks I will be flying to New Hampshire for my 2 week vacation. I need it. I am in desperate need to spend time with family. I haven't seen any family since February when I was at Ally's for a couple of days. I talk to my mom and brother which helps. Once a month or less I talk to Ally. She's busy. I do remember what it was like to be busy with children and a husband. Just because I haven't been there in a long time (and never will be again) doesn't mean I don't remember. I just miss her. So spending time with family will help restore my soul and balance me out. I have lots of wonderful friends that I spend time with that I love and who love me. They are what keep me going and sane. But sometimes, you have to admit, there's nothing quite like a hug from mom. Looking forward to that.