Rut

I need to get out of my rut. I do nothing but go to work, go home and go to sleep. If I have an errand to run I try to do it on the way to work or to home. I haven't been much of anywhere for a long time. It's been almost a month since I've even been outside of Chico. It is beginning to depress me.

I have some plans for the weekend but mostly for tomorrow. Nothing really for today. I even thought about just gassing up the car and heading somewhere OUT of Chico for lunch. But lunch alone is, well, depressing. I go out for dinner maybe twice a month, one of which is usually the Legal Secretaries' meeting but even that didn't happen this month. I'm missing my family. I'm missing spending time with friends. I go to bed and it's still light out. It's been muggy and warm and just making a decision about whether or not I want to eat, and if so what, seems to be a lot to do lately.

So I was thinking maybe it's time I just gas up the car and maybe splurge $40 and go to lunch at Gold Country Casino over in Oroville.

But knowing me, I probably won't. It's that whole thing about if I'm going to be alone, might as well just pick up a sandwich and eat it at home alone. I can't make a decision. It just doesn't really seem that important.

But I'm beginning to think maybe it is.