Wishes

There are so many things to learn how to do where a blog is concerned and I have no idea where to start. I want to have the cool picture album like I've seen others have. Dancing images. Links to sub-blogs. I don't even have a clue where to start. So I keep going on this simple way.

I want to write poetry again. I want more time to knit. I want more ambition where work is concerned. I have lost my spark of late. This should be a wonderful time in my life. I have a job which pays enough that I am self supporting. I have a beautiful place to live. I have friends. But I have also lately had some bumps in what I was sure were very secure friendships. I have been overly emotional lately. I am sick at heart over someone I know who is horrifically ill. I should be so much happier about my daughter being healthy and pregnant and happy. And the thing is that I am. I'm just not really capable of feeling anything but sorrow lately. And I have no idea why.

I'd like to put some poetry in here but, yet again, I can't figure out how to get it to single space when I hit a return so I won't. I know I could probably fix it in the HTML if I could remember how to do that. So instead I just will think about what I might have said.

I am thinking that what is bothering me are lots of little things building up. I found myself riding up in the elevator to work today feeling incredibly sad and going into work was always one of my joys. I really love what I do. So my quest this week is to figure out what happened to the spark and where the real me has gone. If you have a clue or suggestion, please, let me know.